How will I ever recover from the Problems I have?....?

Hang in there and don't kill yourself. You need to find someone you can talk to. College Success cles are meant to look out for you and help you adjust to college aren't they (the ones I took were) so I would think you could talk to that teacher about problems. Try writing down what you need to say and give it to her so that you don't feel on the spot or worried you'll say the wrong thing if you just go up and try to talk. If you really can't talk to her about it, maybe your school has a counselor or someone you would like more and could talk to about this. If not, talk to your family members or even see a professional counselor who can help you overcome these problems. You will feel better, you just have to be patient and keep trying. Take care! :)